Only unexpected gifts make life worth living. What is life without such gifts? A burden, perhaps. But the existence of such moments which are totally unforseeable, make life boundlessly rich. If my lonely musings below are able to give anyone such unexpected happiness then I think my effort has been rewarded.
So, never expect, just live.
Thus Spoke Zarathustra
I am reading Nietzsche’s Thus Spoke Zarathustra. She is certainly more than a book. She is more like an enigma. Anyone who dares to read her earnestly can experience a powerful spell cast by her mysterious aphorisms. The first thing which I noticed about her is that this book can’t be read indoors just because she is not just a thing to be read. Rather, she has a life of her own and one can only be a friend or enemy of her. And some solitary soul like mine can also fall in love with her. Yes, I am indeed in love with her. And our rendezvous only takes place whenever I am under the open sky where my eyes converse with widest horizons and breezes gently play with my limbs. Where birds are singing and flowers are blooming with the greatest joy. Nothing more can be said for true Love always loves to be silent. Here is the quote which is closest to my heart:
Brave, unconcerned, mocking, violent- that’s what wisdom wants us to be; she is a woman, and always loves only a warrior.
When they called me, as it was my wont, I was lying
supine on an old bed sheet spread on the floor. By now I had got used to
sleeping on the floor though it was very difficult in the beginning. On the one
hand repeated police beatings had made my bones utterly mushy and on the other,
I had led a life of comfort. Because I was used to a life of comfort, I slept
in a cot even during my days of hiding. Otherwise like others of my ilk I too
would have been hiding in some sugarcane fields. But I had told the jathedars –
group leaders – very clearly that I would be spending my nights in some dera1.
The jathedars were in great awe of my being educated and otherwise too, what
objection could they have had? Rather I only did all their work and I enjoyed a
better reputation as a junior jathedar. *